Just wanted to post to say that I made it home from Chicago. The trip ended on a very difficult note and reality hit me like a sledge hammer when I got off the train Sunday evening. I’ll be back to post some pictures from my trip. It was a much needed break from reality and I’m so grateful for a boss who spoils me with trips like these and who was also a friend with a hug and a listening ear the entire ride back. I did finish a February desktop on the way there (I know, February is almost over) but I never got to work on March because we just talked the whole way home. On the drive back to my apartment at 12 am I listened to the song that I’ve put as the first song on the blog-pod right now. Life is Hard by Pam Thum. It’s exactly how I was feeling at the end of a long emotional day. Cuz life is hard, isn’t it? I can’t be the only one who feels that way. I know there are people going through things so much harder than me. I think so often of Stephanie and her strength in circumstances I don’t think any of us could ever imagine. I know I’ve been vague about what I’ve been going through. I’m just not ready to share some very personal things here on the web. I hope someday I’ll be able to but just not right now. For now I would appreciate any prayers that I can just try to stay positive and appreciate the things that I do have to be thankful for over the next months ahead. This week is a particularly tough dose of ‘life is hard’ for me and I think prayers are the only way I’ll be able to make it through without giving up. And while you’re praying say an extra prayer for Stephanie who deserves them so much more than I. Her strength and faith continually amaze me. I guess I should tell her that personally too because I doubt she realizes how much she inspires even people going through entirely different circumstances.
Anyway, here’s what I came up with for the February desktop. I’m thinking maybe minus the hearts I can probably just modify it to use for March. I’ll have to work on that tonight. Hopefully I’ll be back later with that and a few photos from my weekend away.
I’m so sorry! I totally agree with you! Stephanie is incredibly amazing and I too think of her every single moment of the day! Hugs to you sweet Auntie Pea! :)
i like the just be on your to do list.. its the theme of my blog.. and the basis of these lyrics:
You can travel the world
But you can’t run away
From the person you are in your heart
You can be who you want to be
Make us believe in you
Keep all your light in the dark
You’re searching for truth
You must look in the mirror
And make sense of what you can see
Just be
Just be
They say learning to love yourself
Is the first step
But you take what you want to be real
Flying on planes, exotic locations
Won’t teach you
How you how to feel
Beside the fact
That you are who you are
And nothing can change that belief
Just be
Just be
Cause now I know
It’s not so far
To where I go
There’s not this spot
Since this I feel
I need
To just be
Just be
I was lost
And I’m still lost
But I feel so much better
Cause now I know
It’s not so far
To where I go
There’s not this spot
Since this I feel
I need
To just be
Just be
I found your blog! Took everything in me.. :) But I just wanted to say, I’m praying for you, what ever it is that you are going through.. There are times in our lives, when we just sit and ask why? Hard to believe that God intended for moments like this to happen.. Hard to believe that through life’s struggles, He still wants us to trust Him and place our faith that things will turn out fine. I’ve learned that through some of the hardest experiences in my life, it is God speaking to me.. Asking me to hang on a little tighter.. to believe that things will work out in the end. Sometimes, there is no answer to the how’s and why’s of life. Sometimes you just got to go through them, always with your head up. I pray for strength on your end.. And I’m so glad I found your blog and your bags! TAke care!
just heard thru the very long grapevine (lol) that you were in need of some prayers…so wanted to stop by and say i’ll be saying a few for ya :) hope things turn around soon!
-SP
(((((Big heartfelt hugs))))) and you know I’m always good for a listen. :)
Praying for you as well. You’ll get through it, Shawn. I know you will!!
Well, first I love the desktop. Well, maybe not first. First, hugs and prayers for you and of course, for Stephanie and Asher, too. Sorry you’re going through a rough time right now and I hope that you’re able to get through it to a happier place soon.
Praying for you for sure…….I have been asking myself the same question..why is life so hard sometimes?? I have been through a rocky road these days too.
That’s actually why I started scrapping and went back to work full time..keeping my mind busy. Can’t wait to get my bag and did you say messenger bags too….I iwll have to get one…I looooveee bags.