Ya’ll are the sweetest. Amazingly kind and sweet. I know what it’s like to be a lurker so those of you who de-lurked to comment on my last post thank you. I can’t even keep up with responding to the uplifting sweet things you’ve all said. I called Jill right away to tell her she made me cry. I’m so lucky to have her in my life. The rest of you I wish I could just move you all closer so we could have a big ‘ol girls night out every once in awhile.

I wanted to follow up to say that I totally agree with those of you who mentioned how helpful medication could be. I’ve known quite a few people who have taken or take anti-depressants and I believe 100% that they work and that they are often needed. I guess for me right now I question whether this funk that I’ve been in is more circumstantial so I hesitate to become dependant on chemicals to help and then not know when or how to stop taking them. I do think the chemical thing must have at least something to do with it. In fact I thought it was just a hormonal thing for the first week but going on week 2 of ultra-sensitive, cry-at-the-drop-of-a-hat emotions is getting a little tiring.

I do think the fact that I actually do the crying thing is good though. I guess it’s one of the advantages to living alone. Friday night I had my niece overnight and had to resort to crying in the shower just so she wouldn’t wonder what’s wrong with Auntie Shawny. I mean who can be sad with a brand new puppy?! Talk about feeling like you’re losing your grip on things. I also have shoulders to cry on. More than I realized apparently. Like Kimmy said I really am truly blessed.

I’m not giving up. The loss of hope is a scary thing for me but I still try and believe that life will be so much different 6 months or a year from now. I do hope that I can look back on these feelings and say it was all worth it to be filled with the happiness that I know is out there for me. I’m just not a patient person so having certain aspects of life in a holding pattern is a struggle.

I do want to make it clear that I’m not blaming anyone else for my sadness lately. I do think alot of it is circumstantial and I’m responsible for my own circumstances.

Anyway, enough sadness. It definitely helps to feel like other people struggle with the same feelings so if you can relate please keep the comments comin’. They make me feel a little less crazy, a little less pitiful, especially coming from people who I admire so much. 

So how ’bout some random totally not depressing stuff? Warning, completely random rambling ahead. Ya’ll will think I’ve got more issues than just being down the way this crazy mind of mine bounces around sometimes.

First some consumer reviews that I’ve been meaning to blog about:

Dove Energy Glow. Lovin’ this stuff. It’s a lotion that gradually gives you some color like you’ve been in the sun. I don’t love it QUITE as much as the pricier Lancome stuff that I used to use. If you’ve got the extra money and wanna splurge go for the Lancome Flash Bronzer (especially love the shimmery version). If you want the drug store price definitely try this Dove stuff. :)

And these new Venus Breeze shavers – not so much. I caved to the fact that the purple would look good with the other items in my shower. (See previous wierdness post here.) Waste of money. The silly wing things seem like they don’t even let the razor make full contact with your skin. I think I’ll get a refill of razors for my trusty vibrating men’s shaver. Highly recommend that one. Not as comfortable to hold for some reason but it actually works longer than 2 weeks. The women’s version doesn’t seem to be sealed as well so the batteries have issues before you even go through one refill of razors.

On Digiscrapping:

A couple of items I’ve picked up that I’m particularly excited about…

  Both by Rhonna Farrer at 2 Peas

By Jessica Bolton from Scrapbook Graphics

And you can probably tell from my blog that I’m a huge fan of Nancy Comelab’s frames since I can barely post without using them. Well have you heard the news?

She’s having an amazing sale that ends Friday so hop over and check it out if you haven’t already. :)

Eclectic Whimsy Boutique:

I’ve been working on some fun new hair accessories to add to the store. Hopefully I’ll have some photos to post by the weekend. And I’m dying to switch my own purse over to one of the new designs from the recent home boutique show but I was hoping ya’ll would snatch them up a little quicker so that I didn’t have so many to choose from. I totally can’t decide which one to carry next. The designs in this batch are my favorites so far. So, to sweeten the deal and help narrow down my options I’m gonna include a free hair accessory of your choice (adult and little kiddo options available) with any purse order between now and Saturday (5-26).

Pixel update:

Cute as ever. Still a tiny little thing. We go to the vet in the morning so hopefully she’s a healthy puppy. She certainly seems to be. She’s starting to listen alot better and is learning to chew on her toys (not my fingers or pig tails). And she likes her crate already. She even hangs out in it on her own when I’m home. I love her to pieces. :)

Entertainment Musings:

How have I not blogged about television lately? Tonight I’m watching American Idol and then the 2nd half of Dancing with the Stars. My AI pick would be Blake but Jordin is amazing too. Blake has been my favorite since the beginning though so it’d be fun to see him win. Although Jordin just sang and got choked up and sure enough, here come the waterworks again. I’m such an emotional basketcase. LOL

Anyway, in DWtS’s I like all 3 that are left but I think Anton is my favorite, then probably Layla and Joey last but they’re all amazing dancers in very different ways. Still amazed at the popularity of this show. I seriously thought I’d be the only viewer when it was in it’s first season. Already looking forward to hearing who the stars will be for next season. :)

And I mentioned it briefly in the last post but I LOVE Brothers and Sisters. I think I’m going to start watching it again from the beginning on my laptop in bed each night. Did you know you can do this? And it’s FREE. Love that! May have to watch What About Brian too. Did I hear somewhere that it didn’t get renewed?

Oh, and I saw a great movie with my boss a couple of weeks ago. Fracture with Anthony Hopkins and Ryan Gosling (from the Notebook). Excellent movie. In fact I’d love to see it again in the theatre before it’s gone. It was that good.

Wow, how’s that for random?! I’m starting to question what the real block is in my scrapbook journaling since I clearly have the gift of gab when it comes to this blog. If anyone’s made it this far you deserve a cupcake. :)

You have all lifted my spirits and tonight I am feeling more optimistic. Thank you so much for that. When I was at my peak of creating digital scrapbook pages or including adorable photos of nieces and nephews in every post I could make a little sense of people following my blog but it’s a great feeling to know that so many of you stick around even when the creative stuff is lacking and the posts are a bit more gritty. I really am truly blessed in the friends department. You guys are the best!

Gotta run to the grocery store (out of Instant Breakfast) and then drop off some overdue rented movies. Then a bit more sewing and hopefully a little scrapping. Then Brothers & Sisters and some sleep. Great suggestion. :) I seem to be on the every other night plan as far as sleep goes. Last night: not so good, which means tonight should be better. Hopefully.

Thanks again all of you.