It is still May isn’t it? It should be 75 and sunny with a nice breeze. Not 86 and hazy and humid. I should be able to open the door to the deck and let the fresh breeze cool my apartment. I should be driving down the road with my windows down and the sunroof open and the wind messing my hair. It’s May. I’m not ready for 86 degrees. Plus my air conditioning doesn’t work in my car. Actually, the air conditioning works just fine, it’s just that when I turn it on within a few minutes the car stops running. Sortof an issue. But it shouldn’t BE an issue because it’s May and I should be able to enjoy that I have an operating window in my car for at least a couple more weeks.

Also, I am way beyond needing a haircut and fresh color. Especially when it’s 86 and humid. There’s really no point styling it in the morning. By the time I got to work today it’s completely flat and lifeless. Bad hair days suck!

I hate the smell of my new deodorant. It came with some free shampoo/conditioner samples that seemed handy if I take a trip any time soon. So not worth the flowery smell that follows me everywhere I go today. On the bright side, it is better than the alternative ‘cuz did I mention it’s 86?! Ugh!!

Pixel’s first vet appointment went well yesterday but they gave me some medicine to give her once a day for the next week. It comes in these little vials that I’m supposed to squirt in her mouth. Well, the first one ended up all over my kitchen. Sticky sticky nasty stuff and now I’m a day short for her treatment. This after she decided to be wide awake and ready to start the day at 4:30 this morning when I didn’t get to sleep till well past 1.

Can you tell I’m in a foul mood?! I was starting to feel better after reading all of the encouraging comments left here or e-mailed to me. I got to hang out with my best friend Jill last night and we made a trip to the fabric store for the first time in a LONG time together. Had a great time. Brainstormed new designs. Found the perfect fabric to finish off a purse order that I’ve been struggling with. All was seemingly good. Did a little sewing, decided to finish up what I was working on in the morning and start American Idol on tivo. I think that’s when my foul mood started. I’m not saying it’s American Idol’s fault but I’m not sure it’s a complete coincidence that this angry mood swing started while watching the show.

So lets talk American Idol shall we? I wondered as I started it what they are going to do with TWO whole hours when the performances were last night, the votes are all counted. Seriously 2 hours? Well, lets start by confronting the fact that it must’ve actually gone quite a bit past the 2 hour mark. I know this because after watching what was mostly 2 hours of nonsense I realized about an hour and 55 minutes into the show that I wasn’t even going to get to see the ONE thing I was actually watching the show to see. No, I had to catch it on the news later because tivo assumed when they say 2 hours that it would BE 2 hours. Basically though I was annoyed throughout the 2 hour show. Highlights for me I guess would be Kelly Clarkson’s performance, Gwen Steffani and Chris Daughtry. Carrie Underwood is great but her song choice was horrible. Same was true for most of the performers. The group performances were completely cheesy as always. Love Bette Midler but her song choice was frustrating to me. She’s got so many other great songs that she could’ve chosen from. And they were rude once again to the poor kid who looks like a bushbaby. But the performance that made the least sense of all to me was Green Day. They had to have just flushed their career down the toilet. They lost all credibility with their core fans by performing on a show like American Idol and I can’t imagine they picked up any new fans with the depressing song they sang. It literally made me angry listening to their performance. And Taylor Hicks 2 solos?? Come on.

Between that and trying to figure out how to get rid of the stupid black lines around my side bar items I was getting increasingly angry and frustrated as the night went on. I went to bed angry and frustrated. I woke up at 4:30 am to Pixel whining to go out. I wanted to use that extra early morning time to respond to some comments and emails but my internet kept going up and down (mostly down). Pixel shredded the envelope for one of my blockbuster rentals while I was in the shower and then the episode with the medicine splattered all over the kitchen.

Looking forward to So You Think You Can Dance tonight although I’m already quite sure that the obnoxious laugh of that judge Mary is gonna make me wanna reach through that screen and choke her. These anger issues aren’t really workin’ for me. Hopefully it’s a phase on the way to being happier but hating everything about life is not a place I wanna spend too much time.

Here’s to cooler weather starting tomorrow and hopes that the long weekend ahead won’t feel too long. I think maybe it’s time for a gratitude list.