Found these little cards here and filled one out digitally Friday night.
Feeling a little better now but it’s been a rough week. Seeing a grandmother who was always so strong and independent become so frail is tough. Seeing her casket carried to the gravesite next to my grandfathers by my brother and cousins was even more difficult. But to be honest I think it’s entirely different circumstances that made the loss of my grandma this week particularly difficult. Circumstances that I chose for myself that I don’t regret but that seem to emphasize otherwise bearable feelings of being alone. The email from my mom letting us know that Grandma had peacefully passed on came late Tuesday night after any friends that I could call had already gone to bed. Going to bed alone each night is a lonely feeling anyway but it’s emphasized when you could really just use a hug. Going home to an empty house after the visitation Thursday night was equally emotional for me, emphasized by a severe storm (which I normally love) and tornado warnings nearby (which is a bit scary when you’re in a 2nd floor apartment). I live alone by choice so I’m not looking for pity. I just want to remember what this time in life was like for me and this is my only journal so those of you who read unfortunately get the bad with the good.
Fortunately there is good to share too. I’m feeling better today. Wishing there were 2 more days to the weekend. But I got to spend alot of the day yesterday surrounded by the most adorable nieces and nephews on the planet. Sharing tiny cookie bites with Ainsley, watching Isa wink, cuddling with Selah in the nursery and getting one of the world’s best hugs from Paige just a few of the good bits.
And I haven’t even blogged about me new sweet baby niece that I got to hold for quite awhile Thursday night. She was such a honey. This is Gracyn Kay. You can see lots more pictures of her here.
Off to work today and then working on blog designs tonight. I decided it was time to start a separate blog to post about the design stuff. I felt like it was sortof taking over this blog. So if you are interested in what’s going on in the blog design part of life you’ll find all that here from now on. I have a lot of ideas for this new blog including links to fun blogging tools, advice on posting, tutorials and of course posts about the current blogs I’m working on. So, the following is the last (well, last regular) peek at a blog that I’ll be finishing up hopefully tonight…
And finally a fun little quiz that I stumbled across and had to check it out for myself. I think it was right on for me. Funny cuz I really never think of myself as having an accent. Apparently mine is an Inland North accent. What’s yours?
| What American accent do you have?
Your Result: The Inland North
You may think you speak “Standard English straight out of the dictionary” but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like “Are you from Wisconsin?” or “Are you from Chicago?” Chances are you call carbonated drinks “pop.” |
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| What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz |
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Have a great Monday.
I wanna give you a hug. I hope you find some serenity this week.
And I want you to design my blog. I’ll find the right link and get back to you on that.
Hugs to you this morning. I am so sorry you had to go through all of that alone. I wish I could have been there with you.
But, I am glad you got to spend time with your nieces and nephews. You look so happy on the picture of you holding Gracyn. I know that all those kids bring you joy.
I hope you have a better week.
Love,
Me
I am so sorry about your grandma Shawn!!!! Hugs darling!
Love that Mood Alert!!!!!!! Love those designs of course:)
Being alone is not all that bad. I know it’s tough for you because you’ve never spent much time alone. You moved out of your parents house and straight into an apartment with Scott. There was no Shawn time. You didn’t get to enjoy the happiness and frustrations of sharing an apartment with somebody. Having a roommate you just wanted to bury in the backyard.
You have choosen to pursue your own direction. Your own happiness. Unfortunately that does not meet the requirements of your family, thus you are being forced to choose who to make happy: Yourself or your family. You wouldn’t be so alone if your family accepted you for the amazing person you are. I’ll stop there. :)
Embrace the Shawn time, you could end up with me as a roommate. Then you’ll REALLY want that alone time back. :)
“PUT THE TOLIET SEAT DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
:)
Fabulous site! Love the new design and can’t wait to check out the blog design site.
As someone who has never lived alone, I envy that you do have your own little Shawn world to come home to at night, but I also know it must be very hard at times.
Hope this makes you feel better……..
YOU ARE MY FEATURE TODAY ON TODAYS CREATIVE BLOG!
I’m sorry for your loss, Shawn. I just found you through Today’s Creative Blog, and I have to say I just love your style! I’m looking forward to reading more.
Oh my dear friend. How I wished you were at arms length right now… I just want to hug you so tight you would feel all the love and friendship I am feeling for you right now. Hang in there, chica.
What a week for you!
Sending a hug your way!
Anytime you need a blog to play with on testing out new ideas/headers, mine is always available :)
I am still appalledat the idea of you thibnking you don’t have an accent….ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!
And no, I can not type and I dont’ have an accent!!!! Need I remind you I gave you some schooling on how your name is pronounced?? :D
xoxoxoxo
Shawn,
I just logged onto your blog after not visiting it for the last week or so. So sorry to hear you are feeling down. I totally understand and felt/feel the same way after my sweet ol’ Gran died last year. It is so disapointing to see them go from strong, active women to sick and dependent. I don’t really have anything to say that I think is really going to help, just that I do sympathize and hope over time you’ll feel better, not so lonely. blessings, d.
I am so sorry to hear of your grandma ~ there are times when being alone is quite nice but then there are times like that when you need a hug ~